I have a Confession…


Okay so I must confess something because my hubs thinks it’s weird I do this. I say it’s completely normal for a mommy. I check on my boys periodically through out the night. Occasionally I will hop into bed with Aiden and just soak it up. You know, his smell, his chubby cheeks, his soft curly hair- him. I lay there and remember being pregnant with him. I remember his little booty sticking out of my belly. I remember the 4 day process that was his labor and delivery. I cry. I cry almost every single time. I cry because he is 4.5. I cry because I love him so much it hurts. I cry because I cannot believe my baby is growing up so fast, and I’m afraid I’m bit appreciating it enough.

I am in there for maybe 5 minutes. I do this to Caleb but I don’t cry. He’s still my baby and I just like to watch him sleep he is so beautiful!

Please people tell me I’m not some weird creeper stalking my own children. Please…. But I mean hey- with a face like that you would too:)

About thecoffeeqween

I am a 30 something year old mom, wife, and lover of all things coffee and tea. I have two kick ass boys, a hubs who looks like Collin Ferrell, and a killer job as a store manager for Starbucks. Follow me as I juggle it all downing espresso, raising boys and learning to be happy with what I got!
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1 Response to I have a Confession…

  1. javajiving says:

    No, you’re not. My baby boy’s 16 and I still check in on him. I’m afraid I’m no longer allowed to cuddle him, but I still cry once in a while because I can still remember like you, and I feel he’s growing too fast, too. The girls don’t really make me cry, but I still check in on them before they sleep and at least once more before I go to sleep.

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