My dearest Tia Andrea, I am trying so hard to be joyful today. I am trying to let the anger go for one day- your birthday. It’s not fair that instead of a huge party with everyone who has ever met you would be invited, we will be at your grave. I know we will have cake and party with friends and family. I know we will all have a cold one with you. But in all honesty, I just want you here.
I want you here to see the beautiful, intelligent, extremely strong young woman you raised. I want you here to cheer on your son at his wrestling matches. I want you here to laugh and be the best friends my mom and you used to be. I want you here to see the family I am building and share in all my happiness.
I know none of that will ever happen. I know you will be forever young. I know Aiden will always look for the brightest star in the sky and ask me if that is you in heaven.
But today I let go of the anger, even if it’s just for one day. Because today I celebrate all the memories we shared. I celebrate you. You lived life to the fullest always going at full throttle. Happy Birthday Tia. We love and miss you every single day.