This I my last few weeks of leave and I’m starting to get upset. It’s my 3rd time and it is harder every single time. I know I am so very lucky to have a job where my husband and I receive all the support we need to have our family. But I already miss my babies. Le sigh.
We have had such a blast- even though it ha been so hard on me, these last 5 months. I am so lucky I have family members who will help out and great daycare. But I’m still sad. It always feels like right when I hit my stride with being a mom to another baby an working that routine it’s time to go back.
I am so lucky to have had all this time with them but I still can’t feel it yet. I do miss work and my customers. I miss the interaction with people and having more purpose outside the home. I miss the freedom the extra money brings. But I know when I first go back I will miss my kids more. I’m trying desperately to see the forest thru the trees but right now I’m just sad. Then I think I should enjoy these last few weeks and not waste them being sad and I’m even more sad:/ it’s a vicious circle!
Ok I’m depressing myself even further I need to stop! Last week I was considering data entry work to try and stay home. Ugh I need to suck it up. I need encouragement. Feeling crappy today.