This weekend I will hold my babies tighter. I will try not to lose it when they won’t listen and I have to repeat myself several times. I will enjoy and take a mental picture of every single moment we share this holiday.
I will try with all my might to keep the anxiety of losing them away. I will not let my mind say I don’t deserve this. I don’t know why I’m so lucky but I will make sure I don’t take it for granted.
Coleson, my friends little boy from the previous post, passed away. She is hurting and I cannot find a comforting word in my entire brain because there are none.
I will reflect on the life I have and what the bigger picture might be. I will be thankful and not ask why. I won’t understand anytime soon but I have to keep the faith.