I’ve been quiet for a while now. Writing is my therapy but you can’t always just lay it all out there. To say the past couple of years has been trying is the understatement of a lifetime. I am black and blue or at least emotionally I black and blue from the curve balls life has been pelting me with.
One thing I can’t completely confess is the ups and downs of my marriage. While we seem to be more down than up lately some things are best kept private. I’ve never been one to think you can solve marriage woes by blasting them to everyone and anyone who will listen. I will say reminding ourselves that this (marriage) is supposed to be permanent. That we went in saying divorce was never an option doesn’t make it easier. It doesn’t mean you trust you will move on and find that up or high again. But we’re in it and we’re working through it.
There’s so many times I wanted to jump on here and write about all the good. Because there has been so much. Middle little Caleb has been dominating the wrestling mat winning Reno Worlds and earning a spot on team Cali Gold. Aiden has grown up so much and yet stayed little in the most surprising ways. Parenting him has been hard but he is a good kid and I trust one day it will all click into place. Callen has been as wild and free as ever. He started kinder and is thriving! He can read and I swear it’s amazing every time even though he’s my third kid, it will never get old. But the most wonderful part of the past year has been the surprise 4th smith boy added to it family in October. Obviously I will be posting about all of that separately and I didn’t immediately because when I say I was shook when I found out I was pregnant well, that would be the 2nd understatement of a lifetime. We have been so very lucky to have Greyson James come into our lives and end 2017 on a positive note.
So with all that I say welcome back self. Here’s to new adventures and new stories.