You guys I have one more week home then it’s back to work. Up until now I was fine. I actually was a little happy that things might get back to normal because they have felt so off. Not in a bad way- I mean snuggling with my new baby has been amazing my extra time with the older kids is always awesome. But it all of a sudden hit me.
It hit me that I won’t get snuggles and kisses whenever I want. I won’t get to rock him to sleep and hold him for as long as I want. I won’t get to snuggle up under the covers for nap number 1 of the day. And that, that makes me start to feel so sad.
I on the verge of tears. This is my absolute last baby ever and my baby time is almost up. He will be 3 months old this week and I just feel so much. I know he will be in good hands, he will be with my mom, but my god I just want to take him with me. I want to go to work and take his pack n play and snuggle him when I need it. I want to look over from the phone when dealing with a tough customer and warm my heart at the sight of my beautiful baby. Ugh this is the 4th time I’m leaving a baby and it just might be the hardest. My poor soul feels a little empty just thinking about it.