One Week

You guys I have one more week home then it’s back to work. Up until now I was fine. I actually was a little happy that things might get back to normal because they have felt so off. Not in a bad way- I mean snuggling with my new baby has been amazing my extra time with the older kids is always awesome. But it all of a sudden hit me.

It hit me that I won’t get snuggles and kisses whenever I want. I won’t get to rock him to sleep and hold him for as long as I want. I won’t get to snuggle up under the covers for nap number 1 of the day. And that, that makes me start to feel so sad.

I on the verge of tears. This is my absolute last baby ever and my baby time is almost up. He will be 3 months old this week and I just feel so much. I know he will be in good hands, he will be with my mom, but my god I just want to take him with me. I want to go to work and take his pack n play and snuggle him when I need it. I want to look over from the phone when dealing with a tough customer and warm my heart at the sight of my beautiful baby. Ugh this is the 4th time I’m leaving a baby and it just might be the hardest. My poor soul feels a little empty just thinking about it.

About thecoffeeqween

I am a 30 something year old mom, wife, and lover of all things coffee and tea. I have two kick ass boys, a hubs who looks like Collin Ferrell, and a killer job as a store manager for Starbucks. Follow me as I juggle it all downing espresso, raising boys and learning to be happy with what I got!
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