Tag Archives: grieving

My Dearest Tia. 

Dear Tia Andrea: Yesterday marks 7 years since you were taken from us. It’s funny how 7 years seems like a long time but if I sit quietly and allow myself to feel it feels like yesterday. So much has … Continue reading

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Randomness

this weekend I attended the funeral of a friend’s brother who was killed by a drunk driver. It was tough to sit there for so many reasons. Watching my friend and his family in pain and hurt, was almost too … Continue reading

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Free Falling

Sometimes when I’m trying to fall asleep I will put the tv on a Sirius XM channel. I listen to whatever fits my mood. Sometimes it’s hits, jazz, coffeehouse, it just depends. When I’m in a funk I listen to … Continue reading

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Happy Birthday Tia Andrea

Happy 41st birthday Tia. So much has happened in the last year. So many people have changed and our lives have taken paths we never expected. But the one that hasn’t changed I our love. Our love for you, our … Continue reading

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Learning To Let Go

A lot has been left unanswered in the wake of Andrea’s death. Most I know will never be understood or ever discussed. Most I understand as unknown and can live with it. I will never know why Angel took her … Continue reading

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I don’t know why I torture myself.

I have days where I sit and just watch television shows about murder, death, emergency rooms. I did this a lot shortly after my Tia Andrea died. I would watch and try to understand what happened to her. How scared … Continue reading

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2 years Later

They say it gets better with time, There isn’t enough seconds in a lifetime to make this ok They say love conquers all, seek out solace in those you love. What I need is your love. They say be happy … Continue reading

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I made my peace.

With my post on Saturday I said I wa letting go of my anger. Even if it was just for that one day. And I will admit it was hard when I wrote those words. I wasn’t sure if I … Continue reading

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Happy 40th Birthday Tia Andrea!!

My dearest Tia Andrea, I am trying so hard to be joyful today. I am trying to let the anger go for one day- your birthday. It’s not fair that instead of a huge party with everyone who has ever … Continue reading

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When will it stop?

I haven’t cried since July. That statement alone assures me it’s getting better. The anxiety of post partum and the grief of losing my aunt are still mingled together. But I can honestly say the grieving is much better now. … Continue reading

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